1.These are the BEST packing inventions ever–everyone needs these!! 
2. Finishing packing for this trip has triggered some emotions—this upcoming trip of mine truly is bittersweet. 
*Long Blog Post* 
About 8 weeks ago my Doctor told me NOT to go on this trip. I was at my 10 week doctors appointment and when we couldn’t hear the heart beat he asked when I wanted to come back in. I told him of my travel plans to Florida and he wanted to check the area I was going for the Zika Virus. When he said that, I told him about my other trip planned to Punta Cana. He came back and said OK to Florida but big NOOO to Punta Cana. 

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Being a Level 2 RED ZONE for Zika Virus I wasn’t going to obviously put my little baby in danger. 

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I was shocked and bummed as this trip was being handed to me for my Hard Work and dedication to my Coaching Job. All Inclusive Vacation that I had been planning around and for since I KNEW about it.   

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Life throws curve balls that is for sure!

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So many curiosities- ‘whys’ ‘how comes’ etc. When we didn’t hear the heart beat my Doctor just thought the Baby was playing hard to get. I continued to try to find it on my own for 2 weeks at home and seemed to know something wasn’t right BUT was being positive and telling myself everything was ok. Then just about exactly 2 weeks later after that 10week appointment the unexpected happened. I discovered I lost my precious little baby!  12 weeks was supposed to the ‘all clear I’m safe mark…not what I expected’. 

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After the Dr. told me not to go I hadn’t cancelled my flight nor the resort details because I just didn’t want to deal with it. 

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After my time away in Florida my husband said to me to take my earned trip to Punta Cana. 

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This is Bittersweet because I wasn’t supposed to be going. I’d be 18 weeks pregnant this week. As time has made it easier I still get sad. My curiosities now being who would she/he have been like? Who’s features would she/he have had?

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I really do believe as time has helped with my healing this trip is almost set up to be a time for reflection and some closure to this chapter of my life. 

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This trip, Bittersweet, it really truly is but I look forward to that self reflection and time. I look forward to the future and Gods plans. I’m feeling closer to closing this chapter and feeling peace at looking forward to starting my next one. 

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