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1.These are the BEST packing inventions ever–everyone needs these!! 
2. Finishing packing for this trip has triggered some emotions—this upcoming trip of mine truly is bittersweet. 
*Long Blog Post* 
About 8 weeks ago my Doctor told me NOT to go on this trip. I was at my 10 week doctors appointment and when we couldn’t hear the heart beat he asked when I wanted to come back in. I told him of my travel plans to Florida and he wanted to check the area I was going for the Zika Virus. When he said that, I told him about my other trip planned to Punta Cana. He came back and said OK to Florida but big NOOO to Punta Cana. 


Being a Level 2 RED ZONE for Zika Virus I wasn’t going to obviously put my little baby in danger. 


I was shocked and bummed as this trip was being handed to me for my Hard Work and dedication to my Coaching Job. All Inclusive Vacation that I had been planning around and for since I KNEW about it.   

Life throws curve balls that is for sure!


So many curiosities- ‘whys’ ‘how comes’ etc. When we didn’t hear the heart beat my Doctor just thought the Baby was playing hard to get. I continued to try to find it on my own for 2 weeks at home and seemed to know something wasn’t right BUT was being positive and telling myself everything was ok. Then just about exactly 2 weeks later after that 10week appointment the unexpected happened. I discovered I lost my precious little baby!  12 weeks was supposed to the ‘all clear I’m safe mark…not what I expected’. 


After the Dr. told me not to go I hadn’t cancelled my flight nor the resort details because I just didn’t want to deal with it. 


After my time away in Florida my husband said to me to take my earned trip to Punta Cana. 


This is Bittersweet because I wasn’t supposed to be going. I’d be 18 weeks pregnant this week. As time has made it easier I still get sad. My curiosities now being who would she/he have been like? Who’s features would she/he have had?


I really do believe as time has helped with my healing this trip is almost set up to be a time for reflection and some closure to this chapter of my life. 


This trip, Bittersweet, it really truly is but I look forward to that self reflection and time. I look forward to the future and Gods plans. I’m feeling closer to closing this chapter and feeling peace at looking forward to starting my next one. 

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I am 35 yrs. old -a Wife and Mother to a Beautiful Boy and my Rainbow Baby Girl. I am a dance and fitness instructor. I own a fitness studio where I offer a variety of fitness classes in the evenings. I recently have become a FULL TIME Fitness Coach after 3+ years of working as a Day Care Assistant after having my Son and leaving my Emotionally Taxing Case Management Position. Fitness is my passion! I love to work out on my own AND with others! Throughout my both of my pregnancies I continued to work out on my own and with Beachbody programs, live my dream of being a work from home mom (for most of the day), and teach at my studio (and other locations) in the evening. After the birth of my son I have worked hard to get my pre-preg. body back. Shaun T's T25 was initial program and then Tony's P90X3 BOTH which I loved the short affective times because with having a newborn baby that was EXACTLY what I needed. I know and understand the self discipline it takes to achieve your desired goals and I am still on that path and have my struggles as everyone else does! I love to offer my support to my clientele with group fitness classes I offer in my community and I feel we work as a team all together to HELP each other. I LOVE offering my support via the web too as I REACH other people that I can't physically see. IT IS AMAZINGLY rewarding and I can't imagine NOT doing what I do! Im currently on my postpartum journey once again and so GRATEFUL and BLESSED to live this healthy lifestyle, lead by example for my family, and support others on their journey too!

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